This World... tsk, tsk

Magdrama tayo.

This world is so temporary and unfair. No, I'm not angry or bitter. I'm just finally facing this thing called reality. I've always believed in the goodness of people, in the 'magic' of life and in the love that makes the world go round...and I still do. But we all know life isn't all about sunshine. We all get that share of intensely heartbreaking, super sad, disappointing, shameful, can't-help-but-cry, seemingly hopeless, "kaawa-awa" moments in life. And it's all so achingly tiring and draining. We have different ways of coping up with all these sorrows and I for one happen to go to blogging, among others. While I don't say everything here, it's somehow a relief to be able to release these pains the heart is trying to bury and ignore but simply CAN'T.

Why, you may ask, am I saying such things? Maybe because these past few days, a lot has come to my knowledge. It's amazing how a lot can change in just a few hours of conversations, through some films recently watched, and with a few clicks on the internet.

This day has been a fairly exhausting one but I will not leave these raging thoughts hanging and be forgotten into oblivion. Not again. Cos what I'm realizing right this very moment is very worthy of sharing (or so I think).

Perhaps all the world's randomness and ugliness are what makes us humans evolve, and change either for the better, or for the worst. Maybe the happy times are also a factor, but that side is pretty easy to grasp and comprehend. Happiness counts and according to school, it is the primary goal of life. And I totally agree. It's a destination, or also a frequent reminder that life isn't all that bad. But happiness is only a part of the whole thing. It's not the sole basis of how far you've come or how strong you are. On the contrary, it's the tough road that we go through that makes us who we are. It sucks how one has to go through the toughest of the toughest times, just to be able to take the next step, to open a new chapter, to move forward and live on. Why can't we keep the happiness that was once there? Why in the world can't we keep that precious thing, tangible or not, for so long? Why do we need lose in order to gain? Why must it be so painful before we see the light... if this light even does exist?! Will it really be something worth all the deepest OUCH? So confusing and complicated. And yet, it's what we all have to live with. Haha nakakainis.

We can be the victim one day, and be the bad guy on the next. That's life. As I see it, we're just taking turns. Talaga nga naman oh... no one is perfect. 

For someone like me, it doesn't immediately and always show, but I've had my major, crazy tough times too, and I do keep on having them. I know for sure that you've had them too, dear reader.

But I'll tell you what. I believe now, more than ever, that it's never the end of the world even if it very, very much seems so. Or even more so, this world is definitely not the endpoint of everything. When we die, there is somewhere we'll surely go to. This afterlife's prerequisite is the life we have now. It's like, you can't take  Physics2 if you haven't passed Physics1.

The temporariness of this world and our stay in it reminds me that while we're supposed to fill the purposes especially assigned to us respectively, we're not supposed to get caught up with all its tricky majestic materialism and ugliness.

This is where the importance of having someone to cling on to comes. This is when God creates an appearance, in all His glory and awesomeness. When I realize how great He is. How I'm not supposed to keep all the baggage to myself. How He loves me so, so much I shouldn't even worry about anything. But because I'm not perfect, I still have my doubts and skeptic episodes that tend to turn my faith upside down. But He will always be there to help me get back in track. In the truthful track. And every time He does, I know, believe me, I am made anew in ways I've never even gave a thought about. The faith is made stronger and deeper, and the person is brought closer to Him. Perhaps this is the Lord's mystery. One which all of humanity can only "partially" comprehend but never totally. And it's meant to be so. Why? I don't know, for crying out loud! But it's okay not to know and I'm okay with not knowing and understanding everything. Let's leave the rest for God to work out on. He knows what He's doing and He has His plans. I think it's best to simply do what's expected of us at the moment. There is nothing better than walking in faith with the Lord.

In one way or another, things will work out for the best. Time will heal the pain. Overwhelming stuff of today won't be as intense as it already is now when tomorrow comes. Because tomorrow will have its own new set of overwhelming stuff for us to overcome. Burying the hatchet today may not be as hard tomorrow. The right time will come. Maybe what I'm saying is so strange and confusing and the dots would seem impossible to connect, but I wanna trust that these are shaping to something of good value. This world is a mess but believe it or not, we will carry on. Let's choose to carry on for the better and trust in God so nothing will be put to waste. So we'll soon see the worth of all our sacrifices, of our moments of heavy hearts and baffled minds.

I'm not an expert on this topic (never was, perhaps never will) but I think this post is just me speaking out my baffled then enlightened mind.

And then I was completely convinced.... The pain always has a purpose.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Romans 12:2