Nineteen

My last teenage year. I'm both happy and sad about it.

Please be patient as I try to Journal-ize my 365-day-period of being a beauty queen of only 18.

I honestly don't know what to say. Sooooo. Hahahaha. I'm a year older again!! There's really no stopping time no matter how much we want it to freeze (or not) huh. As I try to think about how my year has been, the first thing that comes to mind is how immensely tiring but somehow satisfying it's been to study study study read read read understand understand understand everything I'm supposed to, as a student. That's pretty much what I've been into my entire 18th year! (Though it wouldn't be immediately obvious with my mediocre grades and all. Ha. Ha. Ha. Nat pany @ ol)

Besides that, what else? Uhhhh I'd like to think of my 18th year as the year I became the biggest dreamer I can ever be for myself. This is when I learned a lot about what I want for myself in the future which is quite near, by the way. So many ups and downs, from my inner battles to the ones that concern people around me.

I thought I always knew who I want to be, how I want my life to be. But being a teenager kind of messes it up yah knowwww. I have so many feelings and varying degrees of moods! As much as I'm happy about being young, I have so many cloudy questions and fears in mind that I tend to forget about the sunny part of this life. Ang drama ba pakinggan kung sabihin kong sometimes I don't like myself. HAHA.

Anyways, as I was saying... I used to not want to go into specifics when it comes to my future (and by future, I mean after I graduate college) because, basically, I'm scared of disappointments (confession right there, but then again, who isn't?). Strangely however, this time around, I found delight in daydreaming about the "better days to come". They were pretty specific. And lofty. Allow me to share them with you in another post, okay? hehe

Dare to dream and DREAM FIERCE. Narinig ko sa tv yan. But of course... Don't let your dreams just be dreams. Nakita ko naman sa Tumblr yan.

Again, I am thankful I'm a year older. It's like a reminder that life goes on no matter what and that whether or not we realize it, we will all keep on moving forward. I guess that's what we call the human race. Narinig ko rin yan sa movie, The Switch.

God bless you, reader!

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